Living Nightmare

[Ryvox]

Yesterday on Thursday, I went to my therapist to talk about a dream that I had on 6/22/12 that was still in my head and giving me panic attacks. We talked for a while, and...
Long story short, she diagnosed me with early onset schizophrenia.
She brought my mom in and talked to her... worst day of my life. Never saw my mom cry like that.
So now, in the future, I've got a lot of tests, potential medication and evaluations scheduled...
Tomorrow morning, in fact, I'm going to the hospital to get my blood tested.
I can honestly say that I heavily regret everything I told the woman... She lied, and told my mom things I didn't say, and she also tried to trick me in to hypnosis.

I'm having... a lot of trouble dealing with this, and I'm going to need some time before I can stop crying every ten minutes.
I hope to get back soon.

[~*Mercedes*~]

I'm so sorry this is happening to you and if you ever need to vent to a friendly ear I am here. I know what it is like to have to deal with mental illness both with myself and family. *hugs*

[Ryvox]

-hugs back- Thanks so much, Merc. You're a really great friend XD
Time has passed since then, but nothing's gotten better. My mom convinced my therapist to slow down with the schizophrenia idea and instead focus on my anxiety, which I actually do have, and will admit I have a problem with.
I'm having to go to my stupid therapist twice a week, and the second part of my pre-evaluation is... some time. I think my actual evaluation is... either Mid or late September. I can't remember if it's the 8th or the 22nd... but it's some time in September XD

I just can't believe how this all started, and how fast everything's gone. x.x
They're lucky that I have enough friends to vent to, so I haven't slipped in to depression and killed myself from all this bull x.x